Hey group, my name is Rick and I am a REAL alcoholic. I guess I'll start us off. I don't do well with fucking silence. It's good to be at the 5:30 and it's good to see everyone - sorry about the language. I haven't been able to make this meeting much in the last few weeks and it just feels really good to be back.

I have been through hell and back. Do you know what the difference is between religion and spirituality? Religion is for people who have friggin' been to hell and spirituality is for people who have already been there. Anyway, I think I'm in hell. I'm not feeling good, group. I might as well have relapsed - I feel like I drank and did coke all week. I am a mess as in HALT: hungry, angry, lost, and tired. I need to get centered and that's why I am sharing - what's up Silvestri, Cookers, good to see you dudes.

I am going to pick up a white chip tonight, not because I used, but because I feel as if I'm on my first day of sobriety. Things have been that bad. I got evicted, pissed my brother off by accident, got fired, and have not heard from my sponsor in a while. I don't care if people think I relapsed - God knows the truth. But it does not help matters to read in a friggin website that I relapsed. I am really fucking tired of the accusations and people running their goddamn mouths. Take your own inventory assholes. I really am sorry group but it's high time some of these people start paying attention to the principles of the program.

All I know is that I can't, he can, and I think I'll let him. With that I pass, thanks for letting me share.

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Any burning desires?

I need to get something off my chest. I sort of picked up a drink last week, accidentally, while I was playing pool at Bru's Room. It happened a few times that night and I feel as if I need to start over. I am going to pick up a white chip even though a lot of people have told me that this isn't a relapse. I don't know what I'm going to do. I've got no place to live and I'm broke. Sorry Cookers, Silvestri, I know I was like a rock to you guys. All I can say is I don't know where I'll be tomorrow. That's all from me, group.

Coming Soon - Rick's Place: Season Two